イオナ の 日記

It's so hard to see me at home this few days.
Had been going out for retail therapy non stop!
Money spent but no money come back into my side.
But I like this feeling, WOW!

Hence because of retail therapy, I meet up with my shopping people.
Shop from day to night, and back to home and rant over how tired we are.

Anyway! I'm holding a BBQ for birthday (again -.-).
This time round will be held at Hg Block 513 downstairs.
Contact me for more details if you wanna come yeah! :)

BE IT YOU'VE RECEIVED MY SMS INVITATION OR NOT.
FRIENDS OF MINE ARE ALL WELCOMED! ;)
LET'S GATHER AND HAVE FUN.

And didn't I said I lost my Mickey earring that day?
Yesterday my Mickey earpiece spoilt.
It's like wtf is happening to my Mickeys nah! _l_

Bye, I'm rushing out again.
Don't know what time I'll be home again. :X

Didn't got the time to use computer for the past few weeks.
Was busy working that's why, and time really flies.
Because I'm turning 18 soon, like wow finally grow up already. -.-

Just don't understand why I feels excited this minute, and not the next.
8 days more to my legal 18! :)

I always wanted my birthday to be a memorable want!
I hope that happy fruit would be here with me, but sigh...
I want my girls, cliques and friends to be there with me as well.

And also I wanna presents!
So who's gonna be sweet and nice enough to pamper me with things I want?
This year really big girl already, DON'T WANT and NO MORE Mickey Mouse for birthday present already! :D
Though I really love it a lot a lot. ;)

#1:
ENROLL CAR AND GET THE DAMN LICENSE! :D

#2:
DON'T CRY AGAIN THIS YEAR! (SUPER MUST NOT HAPPEN!!!)

#3:
AgnesB -- That pair of earring and that necklace.

#4:

Apple -- iPhone.

#5:

Coach -- Poppy Op Art Large Wristlet.

#6:

Gucci -- 'Joy' Medium Tote With D Ring Detail.

#7:

Gucci -- Hanging Mobile Phone Strap With Interlocking G Detail.

Typed half way touch my ear, I then realised I lost my Mickey Mouse earring.
Fuck damn it, now I don't even know where I dropped it.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck! _l_ !!!

I think? I'm not sure either, last Saturday...


Went out with Nic for the movie 'Sherlocks Holmes'.
I swear no more chim-gology English movies anymore.
Through out the 2+ hours movie, I understood nuts about it. -.-
Then back to Hg to meet up with Nigel, Kenneth and Brian.


And to AMK Hub meet Ahpui, Tianglee, Eugene, Samuel for another movie, 'The Spy Next Door'.
Then to 684 for our late night dinner, and back home.

Didn't really went out lately, lazy worms are in me again, lol.
But only until yesterday, went out for Japanese class and to Chompchomp eat.
Yesterday went out study only already cost me a $300 bomb, faint!

And today I wants to go out, lol on a Friday night. o.O
People ask me out lei, go lepak only also happy already lol. :D

(25 days more, doomsday for me!)

Isn't everything a little too hard for me to digest at this age, I'm still a little too young for everything that's happening now. Just give me some more spaces to think through what I want. For now I hopes that the clock don't ticks, there's no day and night, there's no tomorrow, just let time stop here and never moves again. I'm so afraid that the day come close. -- 33 days more.

OPEN SHOP? STUDY?

Which do I really want?

Study - A thing that I've been pursuing for more than a decade since I'm young, when I'm aged 5. Kinder garden, primary school, secondary school. I even entered a private school to take my first O level examinations. Schools, government and private I've both studied before. But come to think again I spent so many years studying without stopping, could this be a chance for me to break the relationship I have with studies for long? And again, studies isn't a thing I'm really into it, if I choose to really study till I can't, I wouldn't have had slacked through out my whole sec3 life and got myself retained, in the end choose to get an promotion to sec4 TECHNICAL just to get out of that damn school. And got myself in a private school, in the end I bloody flunked my O level with a fantastic results.

Open shop - It's my dream from young. Always had been wanting to open a boutique selling things that people need everyday. To make themselves look pretty in anyway with the apparels that I'm selling. I have to change my attitude for the sake of the shop, I have to learn how to handle the shop at this age, now it's a stepping stone to and adults' lifestyle earlier. And... Yes, now I have the chance to, (so why am I still here hesitating?). Some would just say, go for it. And some would say, don't give up studying it's way more important than opening a shop. So just let me have my decision, though this issue is really hard for me to digest, as a grown up (18 years old in 33 days time) I'm sure I can come up with a decision!

Both decisions I have, and need to be made will scarifies my friends. We wouldn't be meeting up as often as we use to be. I'll be busy with my own stuffs and I'll have to concentrate on everything I do without being distracted even a bit to succeed. But I'm sure I can do it, and if they are my true friends we'll still be true friends if we're true though we don't gets to meet up and catch up as often as we want.

As time passes, we'll see how things go again.
On the day that answer have to be made, you'll get to see my cousin and I sitting down drinking planning our own future.
(Actually even though there's 33 days more, I seriously hope that the day wouldn't come. Because I hate making 2 choose 1 decisions.)

I'm back again, this post ain't going to be good.

I'm not feeling as good as I always was.
I'm not letting things off my mind like how I always does.
I'm still holding grudges with myself, 'oh why am I like this.'
I still remember the feeling I had yesterday afternoon.
11Jan2010, I'll always remember this pain I have, the tears I dropped.

Yet, I don't think I would want to let my dream just stop here.
I want to accomplish I want to fulfill it, I wanna get out of Singapore when I'm able to.
(What an high expectation country is this, where I am living.
Where I used to sing the national anthem, say the pledge and calls it my home sweet home!
Can't the living standard be a little lower? Just a tiny winy bit will do.)

There goes my 1 year, I've wasted it.
4k+ I've spent on that fucking piece of paper.
Oh gawd, what are you thinking right now Ilona.
What do you actually even want to succeed in your life?

(0220am, mummy just walks in into my bedroom...)
Asking me...
"How. What's your plan? Did daddy talked to you? Retake your paper ok? Just get some sleep now, it's getting late."
And she turns her back, and closed my room door.
I feel so sour, my heartaches after listening to what she says.
(Gosh, my tears are blurring my visions again.)

I'm sorry to those who pinned hopes in me.
I didn't want to make anyone worried, but I'm just damn disappointed in myself.
I once brought my hopes high up (way too high), and now I've got those disappointment.
Like finally I understand with the saying,
希望越高, 失望越大.

Parents, siblings, cousins: -
I'm really sorry to made your worried.
Promise to study harder, get myself the life I want.
Be a better person when time comes by.

Friends: -
Thank you for those comforting, those calls and SMSes.
I really appreciated it a lot.
Thank you for those sensed that have been talked to me.
Thank you for letting me know that when I falls, there's still people to catch me.
Thank you for letting me have a shoulder to lean on when I needed one.
I love you, my friends.



Okok, enough of those emoshits.

09Jan10.

Sharon's 18 birthday, she's legal.
Had a great time with my girls, yet Cat and Andrea wasn't there with us.
If not time will be even better.




Next will be my 18th.
People get ready to save money, we're gonna get party.
And you gonna get me my birthday present.
(Next post, I'm gonna post my birthday wish list already!)
Most importantly, I wants my girls to be with me that day.
(Jolene Wong, Sharon Ng, Shermaine Tan, Andrea Sim and Catherine Chee!)
And then it'll be my turn to get myself a car license.


Goodnight, I'll be back soon.
I needs to pack up those emotions, forget those pains and tears then tomorrow will be a better day.

Bye to 2009.
(A wonderful year I had though things still cropped up)
Warm welcome to 2010!
(Make this an even better year for me please.)

HAPPY 2010

EVERYONE! ;)

My New Year Resolution:
- Faster take license and drive!!!
- Grow taller (every year the same, like boring already and still haven't grow tall yet! :( Haha!)
- Find a stable job, stop being dependent on parents. / Study hard, if I ever gets into Polytechnic!
- Be parents' good girl, cut down on going out so often almost everyday.

May this year be a good year to each and everyone.
Money rolls in for everyone, happiness too.
Sad things bad things, don't come close not even 1mm distance! ;D

2months 16days more, me can't wait.

Been seriously long enough that I hasn't update my page!!!
DG says this when I was on the phone earlier on: "You very long never update your blog already hor?"



19December09 - 23December09!


Was at Thailand, Phuket with friends.
Clubbed every night, it's damn tiring.
Met James and Music there.
Every day Thai food, tom yam tom yam tom yam.



24December09!


Had Tian Tian Steamboat with Special Humans.
Initially was suppose to meet up with Cecilia and company after eating.
But in the end headed down to Loyang Tua Pek Gong to return favour.
Then back to Hg.



25December09!

Pathetic Christmas I ever have lol.
Met up with Kenneth and company.
Play L4D 2, and headed to no where.
Zombie zombie zombie and still zombie.



26December09!


BBQ at Channon's place.
Stay till 12+ am, back to chui fong to meet Samuel and company.



27December09!

L4D 2 again, zombies and more zombies.
Homed as early as the clock strikes before 12am.



28December09!

Accompanied Nic to get himself enroll in school with Tianglee.
And Tianglee left home at before 5pm, DG came.
Chill and gossiped a lot with her, we've more to catch up man!
And you'll see Nic and Yuquan only start talking when DG and I goes to toilet or when we're both talking happily to ourselves.
Damn funny can the guys, so sneaky talk also have to choose timing. HAHA.


Caught the movie 'Alvin and the chipmunks 2' at Cathay with Tianglee and friend, while DG and Yuquan went other places.
The movie was great, super cute can the chipmunks.

After movie went down to CCK, I swear it's god damn it cold during the journey.
Supposedly we're going to Adam Food Court to eat, went wrong way.
Then wanted to eat at Yishun 700+ want, but cannot find.
In the end we settled down with Chongpang Nasi Lemak.
Then to AMK ave3 for the guys to pump petrol, and home sweet home we all went.



Now I'm waiting for my pilot DG to come up to my house.
Kenneth and I wants to play L4D 2 again, anyone?
Samuel called me and ranted that his attachment is hell!

ILONA IS BORED AT HOME!
ILONA WANTS TO GO OUT.


Meimei looks like lady Santa on Christmas Eve!
Ja, mata! ;D

17December09!

Went for Japanese class yesterday. :D
And again the guys came fetching me after school.
(Always that much appreciated. <3 love love!)
Then back to Hg to fetch Samuel and to 401 to eat.
Guess I was way too hungry already, I actually finished up my Hokkien Mee.
-Thumbs up and round of applause to Ilona!!! ^o^v !*
After eating, went to fetch Ahkeong and Girlgirl then off to Loyang Tua Pek Gong to pray for safety when I'm out of Sg.
Then to SAF Ferry Terminal to view sea again, and to back to Seletar again.
We're accumulating litters there whenever we go there, our drink bottles!!!
And back to my home sweet home at 2+ going 3am. ;)
Watched show and messaged until 5+ am, cannot take it already and head to bed.
Woke up at 1+ pm, like pathetic sleep awhile wake up. -.-

Bye, be back to update soon. Much loves!

Again, it have been quite some times since I last updated my page.
Been going out almost every night with cliques.
Hence I tends to forget what actually happened over the week.
Wouldn't be updating regularly anymore I think, maybe I'm leaving it here to rot.
When the time comes...



13December09!



Headed to Zoo with Jolene, Nic, Samuel, Ahpui, Ahkeong and Girlgirl.
Everyone was drained out after the entire trip.
And to S'goon Gardens to eat after Zoo, and to meet up with Tianglee near Ahkeong's block to chill.
Back home before 12, like finally.
So what? Reach home early doesn't means I sleep early when I want too.
Sleep half way, woke up to eat and back to sleep only like when the time is nearing to 2 or 3 (I've forgotten too).



12December09!

The night before went to watch Storm Warriors II with cliques, and BB came along too.
I understood nuts about the movie, I swear.
Why must Chinese movie's Chinese standard be so good, my Chinese are like shit now!
And the English subtitles change like too fast only, I'm a slow reader!!!
Well, I just don't understand what they are saying only know they keep fight fight fight.

Bye! I'm off to watch show and sleep again.
NOT FEELING WELL!!! :(
Been sick for almost a week or 2 already.
Almost recovered, then another come again.
Last night still running a little temperature, weak!